"Contact me again when you have money.  That's the only thing you could offer me that is still interesting me about you. 50.000 Euro. Not interested in you before you have that at least. And won't be interested for long if you don't have more soon."

                                                                                                                                                                                        L.O. (The terrified Victim)

 

The words of a NPD

The following transcripts are based on emails and text messages sent to me by L.O. They have been transcribed using text to speech AI . . The original emails and messages are preserved. 

These words reflect communication patterns commonly associated with covert narcissistic abuse and may suggest traits aligned with secondary psychopathy. 

I have attempted to show the well known push - pull dynamic employed by narcissists to trauma bond their victims. Alternating between sweet and charming and cruel and vindictive these audio transcripts offer a window into the world of narcissistic abuse. 

(Note: The voice is AI-generated and does not represent the speaker. The words, however, are her exact written statements.) 

Psychological breakdown of the final message (Click to open)

1. Emotional Framing: Self-Loathing as Manipulation

"I am too fucked up for a relationship... I am a fucked up disturbed piece of human trash..."

This extreme language of self-degradation may appear to reflect genuine accountability, but within the context of covert narcissism, it often serves as strategic self-abasement, not true remorse.

Purpose:

  • To disarm criticism by saying worse about oneself than others could.

  • To provoke guilt or sympathy, particularly after emotionally volatile exchanges.

This tactic is sometimes referred to as “covert grandiosity in reverse”, where the act of being the most broken becomes a new form of exceptionalism.

2. Narcissistic Admission, Masked with Blame

"I was a lonely girl with narcissistic writing thoughts..."

Here, narcissism is framed in vague or even artistic terms rather than acknowledged as a moral or behavioral issue. The tone quickly shifts from self-awareness to catastrophizing, followed by indirect blame:

"...and you made me do that, by the constant insults I think."

This is classic reactive projection, a hallmark of narcissistic abuse cycles. The pattern involves an apparent acceptance of responsibility immediately undermined by a subtle redirection of blame.

3. The Self-Sabotaging Identity Loop

"I have a fucking piece of plastic in my nose..."
"I will never have a family or any big success..."

This type of grotesque self-reduction is intended to signal worthlessness. However, it is presented with finality and fatalism, implicitly conveying:

“Don’t try to fix me, I’m already doomed.”

The underlying function is manipulative. It forces the recipient into a binary: either accept the speaker without conditions, or be positioned as cruel for stepping away.

4. Suicide-Adjoining Language as Emotional Blackmail

"Happy when the time comes to leave this body..."
"If I don’t find a therapist I’ll quit my job and go to a clinic..."

These statements reference suicidal ideation without making direct threats. This is characteristic of the narcissistic cry-for-help mechanism, used to:

  • Alarm the listener,

  • Force emotional re-engagement,

  • Imply shared responsibility for any deterioration.

It is, in effect, emotional blackmail disguised as honesty.

5. False Accountability Framed as Fatalism

"I take responsibility for it, I am not a good person... so it’s just a kind of freedom."

While this may appear to be acceptance of fault, the phrasing strips the speaker of agency. It conveys that the damage is already done,  and unchangeable.

This is not genuine accountability. It is pre-absolution: a narrative tool used to justify continued self-destruction while trapping others in moral conflict.

6. The Final Weapon: Guilt Projection

"You make me hate myself even more than I already do."

This line is blame disguised as vulnerability. After a prolonged display of self-loathing and apparent contrition, the speaker turns the emotional burden outward:

“This self-hate? You caused it.”

This reversal shifts the roles of victim and perpetrator, positioning the abuser as emotionally fragile and the recipient as the agent of destruction.

🧾 Clinical Summary

Classification:
This message exemplifies a textbook case of covert narcissistic collapse. The speaker uses a combination of guilt, shame, blame-shifting, and self-degradation to sustain emotional dominance and control.

Primary Function:

  • To preemptively influence how others respond, turning guilt into reconciliation,

  • To shield the narcissistic narrative (“I am damaged, not abusive”),

  • To confuse accountability by appearing remorseful while subtly implicating others in the cause of the breakdown.

The following are AI generated audio transcripts of messages sent to me by L.O. It is my personal belief, based on a year long study of NPD that she fits all nine criteria listed in the DSM - 5 manual.  Her full name is being withheld to protect her privacy according to law.

 

                                                                     A message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - She sent this to my wife bragging how she would get me to leave her anytime she wanted.  2nd Clip - This was the first time she told me she loved me, she even is kind enough to give me permission to screenshot it.. 

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 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - She plays the victim here in an email meant to be seen by future third parties like Police. (I spread no private files of hers on Discord.)   2nd Clip - Excerpt from the future faking incident at the airport. She told me this 2 days before ghosting me, something she had been planning for months. 

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - Narcissistic projection - she is the one who was always only interested in herself.  2nd Clip - Another message of love --as fake as all the others. These were just words to her, to use as needed. A narcissist has no concept of love. 

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - She complains that I don't care about her - when it is the exact opposite.   2nd Clip - Here she gushes about our sex chats - she used to fake listening to me and never wrote anything back, pretending that she was satisfying herself while her side of the chat was always empty. 

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - She blackmails me by threatening to get me fired. She eventually succeeded by destroying my data and having my PC confiscated.   2nd Clip - Here she begs me not to give up on her as she is better at sex in real life than via chats. This was just an excuse to avoid any engagement while making a fool out of me. 

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - Here she tends to her injured pride by pretending she is better than me at everything, despite being 30 younger than me, extremely inexperienced due to her history of substance abuse, and her many stints at rehab centers.    2nd Clip - She assures me she still fantasizes about me when masturbating. This is a complete lie. She never participated, and only pretended to listen. Sometimes I would stop talking mid sentence and it would take her 2 or 3 minutes to realise I had stopped talking or typing. She was always a liar and a fake. All narcissists are.

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - She pretends that she wants me to come to Germany. She later admits that she had any intention of meeting me. This just future faking, hoping I would offer the money she was trying to scam from me.    2nd Clip - Here she is again manipulating me with future faking, this time at the Stuttgart airport. She probably texted multiple victims there at once. 

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 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - Clearest evidence that her supposed terror and helplessness was nothing but victim playing. This is the real Lea, mean, nasty and disrespectful. It's only when she thinks nobody will see that she let's out the true narcissist that hides within.     2nd Clip - Here she is again manipulating me with false admiration and positive reinforcement. This is meant to trauma bond you to the narcissist.  

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - Multiple times she claims she is only interested in money and that I must buy my way into her pussy.      2nd Clip - And in order to avoid any sexual talk when she doesn't want , she pretends that she only wants to do it in real life. In reality she is a lesbian who sleeps with men only if she has to. She hates all men.

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 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - Worst crime in the world according to the narcissist.       2nd Clip - And in order to avoid any sexual talk when she doesn't want , she pretends that she only wants to do it in real life. In reality she is in all probability gay, as she has told me on many occasions that she despises all men, and that she uses sex as a means to control men. 

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - Here she starts to hint at what she really wanted all along - money. This is why she told me she needed 20 000 euros for a nose job that costs at most 4000 -5 000 euros.       2nd Clip - Again in this clip she unmistakably says that I mean nothing to her and that she only wants my help to obtain money. 

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 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - When I called to tell her I got fired she told me she was watching a documentary. When I complained about her lack of concern I received this message.   2nd Clip - Here she tells me about her sexy breasts and How I will never be able to see them. 

.Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - This is a threat message, threatening me if I should say anything to anyone about what she really is, a covert narcissist.   2nd Clip - Here she accuses me of not loving her because I refused to call her. She spammed me constantly, even stalking me on Discord with fake accounts,  when I tried to break off the relationship. 

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - She presumes to tell me how I feel and what I am going to do. Just think of the arrogance involved.  2nd Clip - Here she is actively hoping for me to die. 

 .Message from Discord

Above: 1st clip - Here you can hear the accusations and insults I was exposed to day after day. Not the actions of a terrified woman.   2nd Clip - Almost immediately afterwards she sends me this message thanking me for always being there and calming her down. 

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 .Message from Discord

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 .Message from Discord

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The final Message