Realization

I had been played by a malignant narcissist

It's a hard thing to admit. Nobody wants to say "I got played". Especially not by someone who's half your age. It's embarrassing. I had no idea what a covert narcissist was. She seemed nice when we met, intelligent, enthusiastic, funny and charming. Little did I know that it was all an act, designed to suck me in, an act she has probably performed many times before. Listening to her talk she came across as vulnerable, helpless, and it sounded like every man she'd ever met had abused her in some way or another. I felt an urge to protect her. 

But it was all lies and pretense. She said she needed $20,000 for an operation, that she couldn't afford it, but that she was saving up for it. I found out later that the procedure costs at most $3,000 to $5,000. At first I believed her. Why wouldn't I?  But as time went on I began to see a darker side of her, a side I didn't want to see, and so I ignored it.

When you're 60 you don't get many women half your age hitting on you, especially not as hard as this covert narcissist was hitting on me.  Sending me explicit photographs, openly telling me most intimate details of her private life. For months, I believed I was experiencing genuine intimacy, that we had a bond.  This was meant to lull me into a false sense of security and closeness. She pretended at first to be shy and said although she wanted to do intimate chats with me she was too shy to text anything herself. I had to perform the entire thing, with her being totally non respondent.

She assured me these one sided sex chats "turned her on". I would get messages that said: "My pussy is exhausted... you are incredible. I tell all my friends about our sex chats and how good you are and they're so jealous."

Above: She often initiated the conversations about sex. Here she even admits that she is now the one that starts them.

Above: It was texts like the above that convinced me she was actually a Lesbian. She often had out of town "friends" stay overnight, and she only had a single bed in her apartment. She always denied it but it is a common thing in Narcissism

She would initiate explicit conversations, then claim she was "too shy" to take part verbally. I found myself writing elaborate sexual scenarios then essentially performing a one-man show believing I was building an intimate connection. The coldest aspect was her strategic validation afterward. Comments like "that was amazing", " you are incredible!"and fabricated stories about friends being "jealous" were calculated psychological rewards designed to keep me performing for her entertainment while she remained untouched.

Instead of participating she was researching and cataloguing my deepest vulnerabilities while remaining completely aloof from any involvement. What I was told was sexual shyness was actually strategic emotional protection. What felt like an intimate connection to me meant nothing to her. Looking back I wonder what she was busy with while I was doing all the talking. Back then I wanted it to be true, so I ignored the feelings that there was something not right. There were times when I would stop suddenly and it took her 2 - 3 minutes to realize it, so she was probably chatting to another victim at the same time as me. She often engaged in the practice when talking to "friends",texting me while she was making conversation with them, laughing about how boring they were.

Above Left: This is from a conversation we had just after she got me banned on the AI platform where she first stalked me. The fact that she got me banned for life turned her on sexually. Right: Here she is surprised that I have never tasted my own sperm.

The Phone Deception

With voice communication, the manipulation became even more extreme. She'd request intimate phone calls, but then mute her phone, getting me to voice entire sexual scenarios alone. I was expected to perform both parts of our "interaction" while she remained completely silent promising that it would be different "in real life". The realization that I had essentially been performing alone while she was probably laughing at me was devastating. While I thought we were connecting, she was actually conducting research on my psychological triggers and vulnerabilities. L.O. would have no problem discussing degrading sex acts with ex boyfriends, describing graphic practices in detail, and discuss scenarios involving 'marking' and consuming ejaculate, all while maintaining she was too shy for normal intimate participation.

Her shock that I hadn't engaged in eating my own semen wasn't genuine surprise, it was boundary testing designed to see how far she could push me psychologically. These weren't expressions of sexual desire; they were strategic probes to determine what level of psychological control she could achieve.

Data Collection

While I believed I was impressing her with creativity and building sexual chemistry, she was building a  manipulation playbook, collecting potential ammunition for future use against me. By remaining emotionally and physically distant while pretending involvement, she never revealed her own vulnerabilities, avoided any genuine display's, and maintained psychological control. The fake participation was designed to maintain the illusion of mutual satisfaction while she remained completely uninvested. I even bought her a vibrating toy which i could control. It conveniently "broke" the first time we planned to use it. I understand now she viewed sexuality purely as a strategic weapon rather than human connection. She was willing to discuss any extreme act because none of it was about genuine desire, it was all about achieving psychological control and dominance. She had no intention of ever actually doing anything with me.

A Dangerous Predator

Someone capable of such sexual manipulation while remaining detached represents a dangerous form of predator. She wasn't seeking pleasure or connection; she was conducting psychological experiments. Someone who creates multiple fake accounts, conducts international hacking campaigns, files false police reports including sexual assault, and discusses extreme sexual acts in graphic detail is not shy, they're strategically protecting themselves while exploiting others.

Her "shyness" only appeared when real participation was required. When it served her manipulation goals, she displayed no hesitation whatsoever in crossing boundaries, suggesting extreme scenarios, or discussing graphic details. What I experienced wasn't sexual dysfunction or inexperience, it was the deliberate weaponization of human sexuality for psychological control. She knew that sexual intimacy creates powerful psychological bonds and vulnerability, and systematically exploited that knowledge while remaining completely immune to its effects herself.

Realizing that months of what felt like intimate connection were actually elaborate psychological theater was initially crushing. Sexual manipulation through false intimacy represents one of the most psychologically damaging forms of abuse because it exploits our most fundamental needs for connection and vulnerability. When she weaponizes sexuality she creates a particularly cruel form of psychological torture disguised as romantic interaction. 

Now I want to make one thing clear, the details on this page are not here to embarrass anyone, they are here to show that she is lying when she alleges that I was pressuring her for sex chats. 

Next are some examples of the various legal threats she has made